W.wenxian ,

2010-06-03T00:55:00.000+08:00

why cant i have things my way ,

even if it was my way ,

it wouldnt last ,

why must things be so complicated and not as easy at it seems ?

why must i always feel this way but i cant show how i really feel ?

why izzit that once we show the way we really feel , ppl change their view on us

i dont think i have much paths to choose as im only a student who have so many troubles ,

i tried spilling out my true feelings to my parents and yet i get scolded for doing this ,

i swear i wanted to be as close as anyone is to their parents ,

daughters treating mums like sisters ,

sons treating dads like brothers ,

nah , its all an exception in my family i guess

so just fucking fuck off and spare the fucking thought you motherfuckers dont expect everyone to be fucking ok inside cause they're fucking faking it you motherbitches , im fucking tired of this fucking life cause the fucking stress to study and the ppl around me are fuckedup dont be such a fucker can

THE FUCKING TRUTH HURTS SO FUCKING MUCH

PHUCK

2010-05-16T20:21:00.002+08:00

seriously i thankyou for being able to make me be like this ,

fucking stress as its the fucking o lvl ..
exams over still cant relax , being scolded everyday ,

argh fuck off

2010-04-23T01:07:00.000+08:00

i understand what you're trying to do , cause im not dumb , bitch
so .. respect me , i'll promise to respect you , aint that great ? why cant that happen you bitch ?

fuckoffffffff manzzzzzzzzzzzz

Fcuk

2010-04-01T18:35:00.001+08:00

idk why the first place im friends with you , stop sucking up to ppl can , damn jialat lei you ,
where your face gone to ? cock sucker , go fuck around with your true friends .

i fucking hate life , why did i even continue studying to sec4 ?
im ok with everything accept .....

(:

2010-03-21T00:36:00.000+08:00

why update this when no one bother reading it ? hah

might be a long time after i update this once again , so it'll be a proper post yeh.

Had softball src carnival at padang , city hall , means i woke up at 5am to head down 4 two days ! it always rains every year .. blah ! Yesterday's game was just muddy and i was like thinking when could we play in the rain , like cool and propro only right ? Thn , it happened today , our last match in softball it fucking rained ! the whole time during warm-up till game end still rain , like hair all wet , keep wiping our faces due to the rain , fielding in the rain , batting in the rain ! though we lost , but its so fun and exciting loh , everybody is wet , mud all in shoes and jerseys , best match ever , great way to fucking end the commitment to softball after 3years of this cca ,

wooooooooooooooooooots

thoughts. ( edited )

2010-02-28T03:07:00.001+08:00

online for a fucking short while ,

cause my mum is scolding like a dk what .

today,

cycled to hougang first , thn to ikea , to pasir ris park around and to ehub , back to punggol !

first time , tired like mad , we really did cycle there ! pics with Nitro , if i get them , guess i'll put them on facebook ? yep.

So .. i dont wanna go for tuitions , i fucking have tuitions on weekend , i know if i dont have tuition , i will be lacking behind .. blahblahblahbitch , but its fucking stressful ok , plusplus , i just stayed out till 2am , and got scolded , what dissapointed in you , weekend lei ! test over lei !

what im trying to say you fuckers , my home aint like a home , sorry still .

btw , if im useless , you're th son of th useless child ,

(edited in )
me , daryl , yx , nitro when into th Red house and pasir ris !
dark and scary inside , thinking about it now makes me unable to sleep .

Why th fuck ?!

2010-02-22T21:49:00.000+08:00

so , tests are here , wtffffffffffffffffff !

plus , cca is still on , its not standing down !

it was what i expected ):

andand , Happy Birthday Gid , i lost so much on your birthday ! hah , but i guess its okay

so , positive or negative ?

FACK

2010-02-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

th day i cut my bald , th day daryl didnt cut , th day ywx cut also like nv cut .

i thought of something , i only rmb having us three on that day cutting hair , who took this pic for us ?

Friday night , when to spen house for steamboat , plus all th bloody beers ,

went home in th morning , thn missed course , blahblahblah

as for sat , which is today , visting and standard stuffs , didnt even gamble !

i controlled like mad , cause i dont wanna be like last year , lost 100plus in total , th red packet money only left a quarter ! acutally i did , lost 20bucks , better thn last year (:

plus , its v.day , happy v.day couples .

Believe it or not, i cant be bothered, finally

2010-02-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

Something i have to say idk why , DNT is so much better when we're late around 10mins plus ,
not because we miss lessons , we get to sit outside th class th whole period for 2hrs , and its so much more fun , i feel more motivated to do work , its a pity i cant tell that to th teachers , knn ,

cny is coming , how great or fun could it be , it cant be that fun always , its long gone th joy of it !

i guess my family bought a painting of an chinese woman sitting down , wearing those chinese costume sitting down , its about my shoulder height th pic ? th eyes look so damn real im not kidding ok , its fucking scary , idw that in my house any longer

lastly . my sister is great ! haha

I understand what it means now ,

2010-02-07T19:29:00.000+08:00

Firstly , Happy Birthday Yang , BIG DAY huh , hahahah

weekends are relaxing , wish that school days are lesser ,

i hope that i can catch up with school work !

but i cant , wtf ,

nothing else ): fuckoff far far behind th clouds somewhere !

70

2010-02-04T18:57:00.000+08:00

felt like posting a pic , so i found this , this was when everyone has was still long like hell !

im botak now ):

everything aint going right ! 5 offences in class diary , late 4 times , geee

back thn , i would still make th effort to be early , but now , i dont give a damn no longer ,

one time suspend whole day school , means dont needa study , kinda dumb right their punishment ,

school rules keep stopping me what i wanna do !

looking for tomo's game , cause its th last , lets play well i hope !

being random , staying back after school is so fun , like so carefree yeh ,

tuition later on , sucks ,

The Status ?

2010-02-01T21:15:00.001+08:00

idk why im still keeping this blog updated or alive ..

about softball .. we won temasek sec ,

h.a.p.p.y. during th game , everything is great .

everything is getting better , i guess everything , or maybe not .

school still suck , homework sucks ,

i cant cope up with th workload , and its stacking up already !

for pete's sake , i wanna just slack off in school with friends .

dreams are opposite of reality right ?

i rather not dream of it , let it come true sometime , maybe .

70 still .

2010-01-30T16:09:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was so fucked up , idk why , i just feel so stressed inside ,

after softball , went home and showered , came back down to school for th parent meeeting

im not sure if i still request to change eng band ..

2010-01-27T23:27:00.001+08:00

i prayed and prayed .

2010-01-26T18:24:00.001+08:00

worried , all i can say ):

): really.

2010-01-25T20:24:00.001+08:00

my everyday is packed with something to do , stress .

I couldn't make it still ,

2010-01-24T16:20:00.000+08:00

~~its not a start , but an end ,~~
~~goodluck , goodbye ,~~

~~i'll rmb you .~~

2010-01-23T15:19:00.001+08:00

goodbye , hello ,

Its coming .. ):

2010-01-22T22:05:00.001+08:00

its only th 22nd ? my class diary alreay have 4 , gawd lah

stayed back in school with gab today ,

hurt my finger during p.e. , hurts when bending it ,

went for course , back home late , missed lan , hungry now ):

fuck you ss teacher

2010-01-21T21:19:00.000+08:00

having cca almost everyday , which fucking teacher understands how tiring it is ?

dont come tell me its O's , cause i dont give a damn ,

i tell you i cca come home so late and tired , how do your work ?

i dont believe you young that time so perfect , nv get scolded by teacher , ):

i realize my co-form , miss yew izzit ? treats me kinda well , shes always helping me to get out of trouble , ty

i realize also , i have many great ppl around me , just that nv know only ..

wth , fuck .

Accomplished .

2010-01-19T18:16:00.002+08:00

idk what 2 say .

...... like crazy .

2010-01-18T22:58:00.000+08:00

First day of school with this botak , so called , some said ugly , some said style .

i really cannot concentrate in class manz , fuck it ,

leg aching , wheres th chi medical shop for those stupid oil dontknow recommend , at this rate , always cold every night , i think my leg can be useless already , like wtf ?

i havent't talk to my mum since sat ! wtfffff , wthhhhh ,

random.

I dont feel a bit (:

2010-01-14T19:39:00.000+08:00

im just stressed out that my DnT is lagging behind and i havent started yet at all .
and i just missed a tuition because i just came back from softball ,
when is the stupid damn barber coming , faster cut can omg ,

all i know , slacked with irfan till maths left 10mins . nice ,

Amazed

2010-01-13T22:37:00.001+08:00

having one offence in class diary , having ten offences in class diary , aint it still offences ?
so i dont care how many offences i get , nbnb ,

tomo is thurs , meaning softball again , goodgame ,

btw , tomo barber coming and i got caught 4 nothing , my hair is so f-king short ,
dont threaten me ! cause i'll cut botak or mogu already

WHY

2010-01-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

wordy post i guess ,

firstly , quarreled with mum cause i really have no more time to squeeze in another fucking tuition ,
you see , i only left fri to relax and its th only day i have left , nb , im supposed to have maths tuition , wtf lah

mon - softball
tue - something on
wed - softball
thurs - softball plus tuition , i have to change th tuition too , meaning most likely on fri , no more time to rest
fri - maybe th tuition from thurs or either nothing on ,
sat - physics tuition , not forgetting that having bio tuition too starting soon ,
sun - maths tuition to squeeze in as mentioned above ,

OMGWTF , of course i'll be irritated or stressed out you motherfuckers , come home get nagged saying when can i have this and that tuition , thats why we quarreled , so much training somemore , body is already numb and aching , falling asleep in classes , gosh lah ,

just skip th o lvl lah nb ,

Everything is going wrong

2010-01-11T20:01:00.001+08:00

once i solved this , another pops out , its nvr ending ..

i realized , bringing 10bucks to school for a day isn't enough , wtf rightz , im going brankrupt at this rate , idk what i eat until this much , can die already , loan here and there , always owe ppl money ,

school aint that great , i prefer hols so much ,

i wanna talk to my fucking parents but it is so hard .

i neeed to get a school bag , i got no school bag

carrying some stupid file .

er . bye

HELL YEAH .

2010-01-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

didnt attend tuition in th morn , dk why ,

went to meet daryl to go compass ,

thn went to play lan at pp , bloody hell no game can play , i go in only to hear music loud loud ,

waste of money , and thn went to playground to talk , th bridge was the joke of the day , go Daryl tang's facebook , i think he will upload it , damn funny idk why , haha ,

maybe what you said was right ,

You'll be bleeding soon ,

2010-01-09T16:31:00.000+08:00

I would its a matter of time , b4 you get take down ,

Feeling of being sad and down is quite nice ,

It looked bad ,

2010-01-06T17:10:00.003+08:00

" if loving you was a mistake , i rather make that mistake all my life "
someone told me this , nice huh ?

its th first time im feeling pressurized by dnt work , holycow , save me please ,
i really dont like school , and , saying vulgar really gets caning , wth ,

2010-01-05T18:24:00.000+08:00

had a bad haircut , who cares ,

its really unbearable inside ,

another thing is ,
so what if you hv th power in school ,
i have better plans , fuckoff ,

...

2010-01-04T21:10:00.000+08:00

let me tell you something interesting , scolding vulgar to friends will get cane ,
im gonna get cane everyday thn , stupid ,

i like that split second moment ,
i need not rmb it , i can see it ,

i got that lost feeling in school ,

can i say something ?

2010-01-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

saw ywx and the rest at ehub , happen to join them for movie at midnight , stuck there till 6am and home ,

watched th fourth kind , fucking scared th hell out of everyone , fucking real footages of abduction and aliens , like , this movie proves there is , what for still ask us believe whether got anot , i swear to god i couldnt sleep cause i was afraid it would abduct me while im in my sleep , watch to understand fuckers ,

We wouldn't talk ,

2010-01-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

i liked that egg , very cute th shape , grow into baby chick !

me and daryl got giddy , like damn regret la ,

idk how to explain how i feel whenever this always happens , say also no one knows ,

i guess it cant be helped ,

it will stop for now ,

anyone wanna go air conditioned place , im melting , gawd ,

Dreams are opposite of reality ,

2009-12-30T16:48:00.001+08:00

sneezing non stop , my nose hurts ,

Its beyond my control ,

2009-12-29T10:34:00.000+08:00

overslept for breakfast , out movie later , course tonight ,

i really mean this , ):

i like you

2009-12-28T03:54:00.000+08:00

i just hate being alone at night , why dont anyone understand ..

i dont like to be at homeee , its just feels like suicide using th comp ,

i simply get crushed to death inside in other words ,

thn you would say , " dont use comp lah "

thn , idk 2 say ,

Always out of breath upon seeing you ,

2009-12-27T00:52:00.000+08:00

Christmas is over ,

and i loved it muchie .

pics ,

Yd took this on .. last year i guess ? i look so stupid , hehe ,

i cant believe i posed for him , nbnbnb ! hah ,

to sum up : these few days were great ,

though im still easily distracted and stuffs , everyone is great , conflicts gone ,

i like how things are now ,

except for one more thing which is impossible .. blah , no point ,

Idk what 2 say .

2009-12-25T03:57:00.000+08:00

its ok , i understand , i'll try again tomo ,
argharghargharghargh

merry christmas still .

Dried out , left dead ,

2009-12-24T02:55:00.000+08:00

i deserved this i guessed ,

out tomo , some concert thingy ,

i want that thing badly .. ):

my fault , my very own fault ,

unknown to be ,

2009-12-23T03:10:00.001+08:00

i got nothing to say ,

Xmas is coming , lastyear christmas was th best in my life as far i could i rmb ,
best ,

i saw something i really wanted , in a few months ahead , im gonna have it ! wait and seee

present time thn , i need learn how wrap present asap fast !
teach me anyone ?

ty .

2009-12-22T04:20:00.000+08:00

i was distracted th whole time today , didnt even realise tht i havent even taken my dinner , damn hungry now man.

main thing was sitting th new ride gene intro to us , only me and yd and gene sat it , know why so little ? cause ywx scared , its called meteorite i guess ? it costed me 6bucks btw , you'll have to stand and this so called big saucer where everyone stands around it spins , at first it looked ok , but it could move upwards meaning th saucer from flat , to standing upwards , so high and fast tht it touched th tree already ! freaking high , we sat it and i scared the shit out of myself at th starting , although this isnt as bad as my experience at escape's viking ship , knn that one is damn scary . i swear i wont haolian anyhow go sit already tht wan,

hah ,

i donthave th pics now , its with gene , once i get it will edit this post with it back , be amazed man , hah , i dontknow why im blogging about this , but its way toooooooo cooooool ,

we got stucked in th rain , and camped at buangkok mrt station till 1plus , th whole station was like " we bought it " play and talked , till we chiong back in th rain and all wet , daryl got lost , BURDEN ! kidding , hah

paiseh Jingster didnt meet you huh ,

out tomo , afraid tomo i wont be able to wakeup , so i wont be sleeping .

finally a proper post about what i did right ? who cares anyway ,

im so happy , you kukubird ~

If you could see it in another view , it would be all fine .

2009-12-21T04:23:00.000+08:00

im not making sense here , im telling ,

he has everything that she wants , im losing out in every aspect ,

and i already lost ,

Wrong Judgement , Same Conclusion .

2009-12-20T04:37:00.000+08:00

im almost there ! i swear im almost there to fucking accomplish this painful burden inside me . ( so called )
no one caused this , but myself ,
life is not so that good , and good in another way ,

just , fuck it ,

Sigh

2009-12-17T02:50:00.001+08:00

caught Avatar , 3d , niceeee .

christmas comingg , omg ,

one year is gone this fast , next year jan is gonna suck big time ,

stop time please ,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHaWvR7AWR4&feature=related
This love - G dragon
its lyrics , gawd

2009-12-15T18:54:00.002+08:00

if only i could have this mindset 4ever , not being so f up inside all the time ,
argh , bye .

Sorry , its just a word i used till its meaning were gone .

2009-12-14T05:58:00.000+08:00

its useless still i know ,

i just really really didnt know things was like this ,

and furthermore didnt expect this to happen ,

i thought of a totally different situation , who knew it was like this ,

idk really , nv meant to , nv did in my life ,

now its all gone , i can nv do with what i had in mind , all gone ,

i just hate th part of me always irritating you .

Its how it goes , what he says .

2009-12-13T04:37:00.003+08:00

1 year station - G dragon

whyyyyyy , idw this .

2009-12-13T04:35:00.000+08:00

what we ate with yx and yang and jingli ,

yx told me to post this pic yeh ,

ty yang for persuading me to this dinner !

fort canning park is scary ,

tiring to walk .

if this long silence remains forever , i rather just die ,

its killing ,

2w1x.

2009-12-12T04:04:00.000+08:00

to talk to you , fat hope .
to love someone , is the source of th pain , but its worth it .

nights , i wanna enjoy my very own bed ,
finally get to sleep on my bed , i missed it much .

i nv did understand you .

2009-12-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

It feels so good to be back home ,
still , ty spen 's mother , ty nitro , ty spen . really ty !

althought you dontwant see me , i also nv ask ppl dont ask me out when you're there , you dumb or what , we not happy with each other drag other ppl down for what , just go out as normal but dont talk cant ? you're making things hard for everyone . you hate me , i hate you too , so , fuckoff , stop claiming you're innocent , when you're a 1000000000000000000 times worse hornier fucker than me deep down inside , ask yourself bitch .

i know you're not what ppl think off , there's a better side of you inside .

Read my heart.

2009-12-09T04:37:00.000+08:00

im forced to go out with parents tomo , we quarrel so much , yet you want me to go out with you all , awkward you know or not mr. and mrs. wong .

dying inside i swear , i wanna disappear and get reincarnated.

I tried ,

2009-12-08T08:59:00.000+08:00

goodmorning to you , goodnight to me.
anyone kind enough to wake me up at 5 ?
Ali , if you're seeing this , you know what to do .
muahah , edit this tonight when im back from course .

nightynights !

Asking for death ,

2009-12-08T06:54:00.001+08:00

so .... basically is i have been going out in th nights till 5am , late night supper .

mac and jalan kayu's prata , all with the accompany of nacho.

rode around and today succeeded with what we wanted to do .

HI-5 !

got home and showered , headphones are nv off my ears , addicted to new song ,

Hello - G Dragon ft. Dara.

holycow , nice lei .

some random shit i thought of just now on the way home. they claim to be very heroic and able to do anything. than , how much are you willing to sacrifice to get what you want ? or how much to sacrifice to just reach that goal ? you say your life , ask you commit suicide now , will you ? i used to be like this , but its so called impossible .

than ,

whats the limit till you're willing to sacrifice ? friends and family ? i can say im not referring to anyone cause its really some stupid thoughts , so if you think you're that great , maybe not right ? got friends doesnt mean will help you all the way ,

make sense not ?! its random really , no one im meaning about , just what i think .

andand , christmas is coming , the older you're , more crappy presents or NO presents lei !!

" izzit possible to restart "

Out of my mindd.

2009-12-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

wokeup at 7pm , nothing to do now , parents screaming ,

i hate them ok ,

save me please .

2009-12-06T23:22:00.001+08:00

out. bye .

Whats the point ,

2009-12-06T06:45:00.000+08:00

to think lastime in the hols , stayed up whole night on the phone ,

to think im awake now and not feeling tired but hungry ,

to think that my mum is gonna kill me soon ,

to think that ... im having so much on my mind , knn

to think that , got headache now , pain f ..

if i really typed out what i feel here , you can slack with me in the hospital .
or its not appropiate at all .
so , i go around and around it , nv making its point ,
so its naturally being misunderstood , not always what i meant ,
so i dontwanna be mistaken ,

its worth it always , idk why too .

Cracked up .

2009-12-04T21:35:00.000+08:00

Watched twilight new moon .

i dont quite understand the movie ,

guess its about someone you love leaving you .

haagen dazs ice cream can make ppl go broke man .

no dinner , die liao loh .

arghh.

The feeling of being thrown away .

2009-12-04T02:09:00.000+08:00

i cant believe that i went out today without a single cent , without a fucking single cent .

miracle right , really totally relying on my human atm . which i owe him now , ty jingli .

went to kovan with yd too , picked up a topman spiderman shirt , nice ok ! be jealous ppl !

and and , my fucking mood , sorry to who i attitude too . didnt mean it , know me long enough , im like this ok. just not feeling good , my mind capacity so small . once being troubled by things , gone case , so am sorry .

one last thing , what i am now , what i do now , what happens now , basically everything , its all Ali's fault .

all your fault you know ?!?!?! i bet you didnt know till i told you today . hha , ty for the loan of money and coming down when i wanted to eat supper always . ty bro .

i dontwant this lifestyle , im changing it . why cant i have a peaceful , though i have everything already compared to others . i dont like being at home at nights , anywhere to go ?
im asking a question that will not be replied .
knn . fuck . kukubird .

Night spent at Jingster's house.

2009-12-03T05:46:00.000+08:00

Metup Yx for dinner. Went to bbc for awhile and met Jingli.

End up talking which was nice, and staying at his house now after meeting Spen for supper at Econ.

The feeeling is that , something is bothering me the whole time. i cant do anything but just always be this stressed up . nevertheless , im still willing to rack my fucking useless brains out , even though im always that stupid in doing stuffs . idk what i want now or should i say , what can i want now ? cause im not really having any choices but to just keeep quiet . you'll nv know how it feels like .

i dontknow what the f im typing cause its practically bored and im f-kin pekcek.

as much as i want it , its impossible.

im sleeeeepy already , 5.45am at Jingster house . behind me like some dead log !

Nightynights.

Thats why you go away. You wont tell me why.

2009-12-02T14:53:00.000+08:00

just wakeup like so dead, no one is home, nothing to do today, supposed to watch movie but dont feel like spending money. I wanna watch Astro Boy wan lei. Guess i will just rot at home today.

i know i should forget, its just i cant. hah.

its my fault though, sigh..

why why why why why why ?

idk whats the why for.

I'll be happy .

2009-12-02T01:28:00.000+08:00

im just tired from the whole day, but cant sleep dontknow why.
guess this happens to everyone.

i guess i'll will proceed with what i had in minddddd.
its dec already. somehow fast, somehow slow.
i only know i have nothing to do.

taste of perfection? yes.

Hell Yeah,

2009-11-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

Idk why. Just,
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ! (=

HolyShit ok

2009-11-28T18:49:00.000+08:00

i feel so scared now. no one even bother about it. fuckoff.

Takecare.

2009-11-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

i have some family dinner later on.
bye.

This i cant understand, being heartless.

2009-11-26T02:12:00.000+08:00

i keep hearing voices calling me , whats happening to me.

Worth to treasure, worth to give up too.

2009-11-25T15:15:00.000+08:00

all of you , just shut the fuck up .

You're more than just a thought, an imagination. You're an angel.

2009-11-25T01:01:00.000+08:00

i can say , since the last post till now , quarreled all the way with my parents ,

once again , its understandable that ppl have broken families will quarrel , but mine , not perfect but the the ok type , still having quarrels everyday ,

im at fault for scolding all the vulgarities , my fault i know , but my parents just call and start to kp so fucking much , dont even say " hello " , i feel so fuckedup on that very moment , ask and ask like some ex-convict , i hate it , i know what im doing , ok .

well , this date just passed by like fuck , im glad i didnt talk to you , im trying very hard ,

god seems to be playing me , play somemore lah , ruin my life baybeh ,

my life is a mess right now , no aim in life , like what navin said to me ,

a lost sheep ? knn to you la (:

but its true i guess , living each day like nowhere , sucks seriously ,

one more thingy , i got my hair black again , and im happpy about it , tomo having softball , gotta wakeup early again , fuck greendale , stupid cca system ,

btw , ty danish for the work !

lastly , get the fuck out of my sight ,

I am , missing you ,

2009-11-23T15:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday got home at 3 , slept till 3 , now using comp and preparing to go out meeting danish and ywx ,

anyone has the class bbq pics ? can sent me notzz please ?

im dying black back tomo , bored of it ,

2009-11-18T19:21:00.000+08:00

As soon as " forever " is over, i'll be over you ok ,

I dont think you understand ,

2009-11-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

im a fool ,
and i wish to end the pain .

I wish i can talk to you,

2009-11-17T16:36:00.000+08:00

its always impossible, never will it be true.

Foooooled ,

2009-11-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

Ywx, you made me wakeup in the morn, and no cca, powerful ok

so since there was no cca, and btw i also got sent home for my hair, and realizing soon enough there wasn't cca, head to rm for breakfast and played with some stockings,

the Japanese stockings tug of war thingy, all our faces were so f up, hiliarious,

heading out with navin later and course tonight with ali,

CHRISTMAS IS COMING , AINT THAT FUN ,

but that means another year has passed ,

which suck ,

I like your style alot, but you need ability dicks.

2009-11-17T00:43:00.000+08:00

firstly , Jingli , totally forget about you that we're meeting , sorry , my fault this time , always do this to you , i treat you dinner ok , forgive me !

met nacho and yx at mall , slacked and laugh alot like crazy ppl at my house , ate mac in the night ,

tomo having cca , im just going with my hair like this , fcukcare ,

this means sleeping early , idk how i let my mum persuade me to go cca ,

currently , w.wx is in love with korean songs ,

(: his life is better , for today only ! it could be shit the nxt moment,

sweet , his style , is nice ,

I want to say ..

2009-11-16T02:10:00.000+08:00

~~imagine , if life just ended so sudden , not even giving you time to say goodbye to the one you love , and just leaving you to take the good memories , imagine that , and cry .~~

My love love , Your my love (:

2009-11-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

i like i like i like yesterday alot ,

jingli, paiseh not wanna make your life difficult , hope you understand , me got money i treat you ! (:

get you the movie soon , i want finish jennifer's body and the paranomal activity lei ! muahahahahHAHAhaha

today whole day at home ,

tomo heading out , money is going to fly away again , argh ,

later post again , no mooooooodd

Misssssssssss

2009-11-14T03:12:00.000+08:00

I cant sleep , cause theres a fucking pig behind me now, its Jingli !
he dont let me use comp , cannot throw the chicken bone down the window ,
expect me go out of his room clear it when we just watched some ghost show ,
see this and kill me dick ! hahahahahah !

its Jennifer's body , im scared of it ok ,

i hell miss you ,

Disturbance ,

2009-11-12T22:42:00.000+08:00

Xuan , not mean to scare you , but i fucking scared myself over there , dont think about it k ,

Life is boring , Life is meaningless i tell you ok ,

nothing good is coming in my way ,

hols also not say left that much , when hols weren't here , i wanted it so badly ,

when it was here , i wished it didnt had to come ,

what to do tomo ? NOTHING ,

my hair now , go in school sure die , so i cant go ,

i cant finish my DNT , so im dead ,

nothing to do in the night , always quarreling with my mum , she thinks its a daily routine for it ,

Gee , i want to see you , sigh ,

Its my fault always, i can nv get things right, i do things without thinking first, idk what i want, im full of nonsense ok,

2009-11-12T18:18:00.000+08:00

i didnt meant what said , or what i questioned ,

no matter what, i'll be there, lead on your happy life ahead,

I'll be there,

2009-11-12T12:16:00.000+08:00

Im looking forward to what Navin has told me, if its possible, that would be great yeh,

Im gonna cut hairrrrrzzzz, if its a flop, im going baldy,

How many times , was it being repeated to ?

2009-11-12T02:35:00.000+08:00

My mother , i hate her ,

I feel so miserable with everything bothering me , hell with it ,

Miserable nights,

I - MISS - YOU - OK

2009-11-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

All i know , i woke up at 10 , reached school 11.30 and found out that those who were late for geog class , had detention , luckily i came in at physics period , hah lucky bastard me right ?

After school , ate with nacho , went home now , guess im gonna rot at homey ,

You know.. whats the feeling of your heart being crushed ?

2009-11-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

Why?

you're best at hurting always i swear,

Just,

takecare lots,

its been long since i had this heartache feeling, i dont even dare to dream of it now,

what have i done to deserve this, tell me.

Rain Rain Go Away,

2009-11-09T22:45:00.001+08:00

I went over to Yang's house there with Spen, ate and talked,

Stupid rain, causing my legs to ache like hell,

I hate rainy days,

Nights ppl,

I shouldn't be asking that, wont ever again,

I know , I shouldnt be anymore ,

2009-11-09T17:12:00.000+08:00

Although the rashes has stopped, im hoping it wont come back again, cause its really tough for me to sleep at night, and difficult to wakeup too,

I dontknow where to go out too later, cause practically most of them wont answer my calls,

Due to over scratching, i have scars on my leg now, luckily wear pants can cover, imagine this happen to a girl, she sure freak out, hah,

Itchy ,

2009-11-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

I want to go to the beach now, screaming out everything in my head,

My body rashes, got bad to worse, apply dontknow what kelamine lotion?

all white spots on my body, im afraid i cant sleep tonight, cannot go school,

its like , one moment no rashes , suddenly that spot pop out so many !

i wanan scrap my whole skin out right now , itchy to the max , bleedinzzz

more & more , im gonna slice all of them open now , knn

Fook , Fook ok ,

2009-11-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

Wokeup with rashes all over, fever, cannot go out.
Been rotting since morning till now, guess tomo i hope i can go school, im only left with
a week!

Regret also no use w.wx,

Nothing hurts more than realizing she meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to her,

Silent , Unknowingly , You're torturing me .

2009-11-08T04:24:00.000+08:00

I just want to clear my thoughts, stop thinking of ...

Scary ,

2009-11-08T03:29:00.000+08:00

i dontknow what to type , always so empty up there in my mind ,

all i know i dont feel good ,

i wanna go school on monday ! i seriously hope i can wake up ,

random right ,

i just watched some ghost show , till i cant sleep now ,

Astro Boy is out right ? i wanna watch ,

I wonder what can i do in hols ?

Nvmind , you wont bother too , what can i do ,

sucks to live life with regrets , arghhhhh ,

Daryl TANGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG u motherfuckers !

2009-11-07T15:43:00.000+08:00

Its through the lyrics, feels like you're saying something,

its just some stupid assumptions and random thoughts i made to myself,

Just,

bury it w.wx,

Jingli , whos the target !? faster let me know ,

Its Daryl / Darly , Birthday ,

Happy Birthday dick , fucking nonsense guy , hope your hand gets better to pcc ! hahz !

Cure please ,

2009-11-07T01:37:00.001+08:00

for no reason , i only cough badly non-stop at night , and headache so bad ,

im always fine in day time , night time i just dont feel well at all ,

I wanna know ,

2009-11-06T13:47:00.000+08:00

firstly , im fed-up with myself for not attending school , i wanted to attend school i swear , its just that always in the night i cough the whole night resulting in me sleeping late and waking up around 10plus , when i wanna go , my headache will come back , EVERY MORNING , i wanna come schoolzz ,

Going out later i guess , gee , now im only left with a weeek , shitshita ,

Kukubird ,

2009-11-05T20:21:00.001+08:00

fucking no mood , im going out , i wanna go school tomoooooo !

Assumptions , i made

2009-11-05T18:30:00.001+08:00

drenched , home , no foood , havent finished my DnT hammer thingy ,

i finally know the feeling , when my mum gets worried for me , i feel so shit ,

its impossible w.wx , fuck yourself ,

I knew , just wasnt ready , and lost , so what ,

2009-11-05T01:46:00.000+08:00

Ty jingli for everything ,

and ps ywx nv pei you go watch movie tomo ,

and xuan is fucking weird guy , im gonna force him to tell me why he cant admit he dyed his hair !

i can say , life is good for now , accept schooling , whn the maths teacher asked what course we wanna take in poly , i was like , totally thinking of O's , like shocked to think so far , although i have alot time now , i also dont bother to plan that far , maybe just get past sec4 , and start doing what i really want ,

i finally know my limits , gonna offline to sleep early tonight cause i go school as my time left is limited , and i know i must treasure it , and and , my chest pain so i gotta sleep early , dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ,

Izzit that easy to forget ?

2009-11-04T11:04:00.000+08:00

This is my 400th posts ! har har har ,

I got nothing to do now , cause im stucked in school at some comp lab ,

No lunch , no dinner , no money for the day , im gonna starve on chips ,

i hate school ,

):

2009-11-03T14:18:00.000+08:00

Ty danish for the drink !

Weather is super hot , luckily im only heading out to clark quay tonight , hah

School , i slept throughout and starved like hell , i hate school , i hate life ,

goodbye ,

Jan 31st , i wanna cry ,

2009-11-03T01:22:00.001+08:00

" My smile equals to your smile , so be happy "

Daydreaming is all i know ,

2009-11-03T00:36:00.000+08:00

Ty ali for the punching bag along with royal ,

Ps nitro left you take bus alone ,

Went to compass meeting xuan and jingli , great time there , joked alot ,

Theres school tomo , i just cant seem to wake up , and i go school just to get my mood gone or depress myself , stupid right me , i wanna enjoy every second of my life , but i always have thought dying the next day after ,

im sure there are many ppl wishing that i die tomo or vanish from here , its just , everything i do , i swear to god every little thing i do , no matter how happy or fun im enjoying , that special someone would just come to mind , im not kidding , i swear to god ok ,

im tired now , but i sleep all the way and cannot wake up tomo , its only left with 2weeks more before life becomes really meaningless , totally pointless , i still want to turn back time badly ,

guess what , im forced to turn off comp by 1am , its all due to me not being able to wake up , gee , my phone is dead everyday , like dontknow have handphone for what ,

i wanna know whats going on inside ,

You think i dont feel guilty ?

2009-11-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

Once again , i quarreled with my mum again ,

due to me , not being able to use comp , cause i must sleep for school tomo , fuck ok , i got attend its very good already , you dont need to boss me around like im still primary school right , im sec3 ,

i cant go out late , even if im outside late , you have to call , check on me , boss around , make sure im not lying , what must be at house than safe , you call one time acceptable , bloody hell 4 5 times you know !? i feel restricted , i finally know how ppl being controlled feels , i want my freedom ,

dont call me to sleep when i can , how bout shifting the whole comp in my room ? and stop entering my room when my light is still on , i need some time alone , you just barge in , i dont go out of course only thing is use comp and talk to friends ? you question me saying why cannnot day time talk , why must night time talk , why must everytime go out in the night , this is why you will nv understand me , your son as a teenager , for fucking god sake did you forget im already a teenager ?

nevertheless , im sorry for using vulgarities cause im so stucked up with my life ok ? i dont need anyone to come help me with it , so stay away ,

sorry mum ,

My Dear Mother ,

2009-11-02T00:12:00.000+08:00

HEY MUMMY , WHICH PART DONT YOU UNDERSTAND ? I DONT LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL AND STUDYING (:

like i have a choice , ?